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4/30/2008 i like 鬼鬼 & 王子. because they look perfect together. well with the sweetness of it, all so-ever deluding people into wishful thinking about their perfect love life, i guess it would be nice to include a few songs.. hope that everyone has this sentiment in mind so that we can all make this harsh world a nicer place to live in. <<< okay -_- 常常偷偷背诵大人唱的情歌 以为可以当作预习爱的功课 明应该学以致用公式全都出错 看着你擦身而过 都呆了 交卷前一分钟答案都还空着 应该怎么组合两个人的几何 理论和现实不同从来不曾想过 面对爱情的学测 都当了 我应该是坏还是乖 你喜欢彩色或黑白 你的笑代表拒绝 还是等待 答案我解不开 我应该被动或耍赖 你喜欢高山或是海 或许爱来得太快 忘了所有对白 ------------------------------------------------------------ nice song mei posted.. =) do not continue watching if you do not want the atmosphere to be utterly destroyed. Last Forever 5:31 AM 4/22/2008 stop it. Last Forever 6:59 PM i want to pass out NOW. i am getting unhappier and unhappier by the day because there are so many things pressing down on me on from all sides, meaning cca, studies etc. it is really a challenge to forget about things and move ahead, but even the strong will succumb to these things if they pile up too much. how should i put it. cca wise- not getting spf and my rank is already hell. tried to forget them but people are so nice and they really helped in bringing it back into my mind. HSK, whatthehell is service day compared to an international examination. fortunately, i have learnt to prioritize, and i shall pon events which i deem not important for others which are more. my music lessons are affected as well. everybody's unhappy. i hate secondary 4 life. AND CAN I MAKE THIS CLEAR ONCE AND FOR ALL I AM NOT F***ING STUDYING TO WIN ANYONE WHY DO I HAVE TO REPEAT THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN I JUST WANT TO GO TO HWACHONG MY PHONE JUST GOT STOLEN AND ALL MY MOTIVATIONAL MESSAGES ARE ALL GONE. IM DEVASTATED AND FURTHERMORE ITS NOT SO MUCH A MATTER OF WINNING OR LOSING. ITS SO SUPERFICIAL PLEASE. I HAVE ALREADY LOST PART OF MYSELF IN THOSE MESSAGES AND IM AT A LOSS AS TO WHAT I WANT TO USE TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO DO WELL. CURRENTLY NOTHING IS HAPPENING AND IM LOSING IT. MY SOCIAL LIFE SUCKS AND IM JUST SPENDING TIME WITH MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY. THIS IS WHAT WE DEEM AS 'NO LIFE'. SO CAN I JUST 'STUDY' FOR MY OWN 'LIFE'? Last Forever 6:18 PM 4/19/2008 i see people fretting over SI ranks, BUC, SPF, 1st class. i should be the one emo-ing and throwing tantrums. its equivalent to one whining over a 95/100 research paper while the 50s and the 60 odds are within earshot. and somehow i seem to recall people proclaiming their impassivity for the badge. nevermind. anyway yesterday was a complete fiasco. going to RG was a painful yet enriching experience. i envy all the IP schools, not just in the educational aspect but.. i guess in their social confidence and all. although i really dont see the point in using such posh vocabulary we only see in essays.. lol. haha well.. saw some people there and it was really heartwarming. i havent seen erin since she left chongfu in primary 3. we didnt talk, but i guess the nexus didnt really require words to put across. .... so much for time wasted. on a lighter note, their school is really nice and i realise all IP school compounds are particularly outstanding. although i do hope some of them stop suanning people. today was quite an experience as well! first time really playing volleyball and i guess we didnt really do too bad. the incident at the end was amusing though. anyway i didnt ps people on thurs. i just prioritized. the HSK incident had thought me how to prioritize, even if it meant my SPF badge, but since i didnt get the rank. so it was wasted. TWICE. TWICE leh. okay great i posted. ..^^ do you guys really really care. Last Forever 4:15 PM 3/10/2008 o.o yes! i am going to get a VAIO laptop tomorrow. -.- later my results drop. nevermind. Jay Chou has a new song! its called Secret Garden. but the full version isnt out yet. .. Tsubasa Chronicles Episode 43. Last Forever 9:30 PM 3/08/2008 feeling a bit better.. but still thinking that it was unfair. everytime music and np clashed, i would ditch my passion away for np because i thought that i cannot let my squad down. my passion leh. wth. now im playing atrociously every week, im getting worse week by week. still i went. i had music yesterday after parade.. thats why i had to go early. i have no mood to stay anyway. guess why? because there was ATF today. i cancelled my lesson and brought it forward. wed thurs fri sat all got events. went to all. wed training, homework didnt have time to practice. thurs polish like mad plus homework and school things didnt have time to practice. friday got parade cannot practice. then came back home start already. and i played like some dog. i took taxi to changi today for the 2nd time in my life. $22.00 kind of angry because i had reached bishan market when ken called. wtf. that time my grandmother's funeral + cremation. i still went to np. wth? im supposed to slack and mourn for her and not go back. was damn sad already that time. where got mood. still i went back. i dedicated so much of my bloody time. and now this is what i get. there wasnt a single time in any major event that i was happy in. o 's' chinese results. A2 i was devastated. because a lot of people did not deserve A1. physics SPA. density no unit? wth. chem SPA. mistaken petri dish for evaporation dish. wth. parade. didnt promote. wth. now i cant get SPF badge. sometimes i wonder if you must be on good terms with higher ups to be able to promote. i guess so. wth. now where got time to chiong. also no motivation. today. ATF was okay.. quite fun. went there feeling moody because of yesterday and everyone ditched me and i wasted $22 instead of spending $7. felt better but i am still feeling pissed. didnt really show it though. no point. i am at home now. i am going to do my homework now. Last Forever 6:16 PM 3/06/2008 i have a bad feeling about tomorrow. and my bad feelings are always confirmed to materialize. it has always been like this for any major events. hopes cannot be placed too high. .. zz Last Forever 8:11 PM |
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