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8/08/2007 why am i even in prig? im sure all of you realise something different about me and the rest of u guys. im sure you do, and i dont know about what u all think or feel about this. i dont mind you guys voicing out what u have to say, be it positive or negative. cos im prepared for the worst, i should accept the facts, and it hurts. so much. The facts are like so penetrating, and even more so when i go out with you guys.. im just.. bu4 yi4 yang4. weiqi- i dno what to say to you luh, i guess msn i already said everything.. primary school so many times same class, do project. i still remember the times when every f word was replaced by suck ._. those days when we keep piaing zelda and mario. now leh, everything change le. now u're of a higher (i dno wad to say, status?) than me. heh, u all might not think this way but this is how the real world thinks, otherwise how do you expect them to eliminate people. heh i know you have your own problems, but i have this one additional de, which is like one of the most influential to my, how to say, future , amongst the others. i have already lost out. cannot deny de. jiayou. eening- eh, haha. primary school that time not so shou2, now not also. xp hm i wonder how i met you in the first place, come to think of it, how did i meet wq, u and tissue and lilan initially? i really dno... haha. i dno what you might think too, but still, i deserve it. just saying la, if u really look down on me, IF LA, just throw it out, say i whatever. at least this makes me feel better rather than making people put up a false front. heh, i know i sound ridiculous.. this reminds me of those particular days, haha.. now thinking of it makes you wonder right, cos it is just so ridiculously ridiculous. haiyo, jiayou. zijin- i wonder how i met you in the first place as well.. HMMM haha your chinese very zai hor, TEACH ME CHINESE, cos my o levels coming. right, and im saying this again. i have o levels. ah i think u had already gotten sick of me saying that i not IP. heh, so im not gonna say it anymore, but sometimes its just so frustrating. i know ip has its disadvantages too, got stress, so i dont think i have any rights to comment. hope you wont see me as some.. i dno what luh... =D jiayou. lilan- hello! same class de wor. haha, but then not too close either. in those days nobody bonds lol. haha and you made it! u got into ny =\ gratz. haha must have been chao happy. wah i still remember that day the psle cert and everything given out. that was like the last time i saw the whole of 6 gracious. i wonder how they are doing now. i think most of them satisfied with their lives now ba.. cos sec sch is apparently more fun. but.. i still miss that class. eeyer, why dont have class gathering de. jiu de bu qu, xing de bu lai? have new frens le must forget old de meh? i hope nobody is like that lor.. =x jiayou. mark- first impression was dam zai guy and everything. i think my hair that time was still bit messy lol, sry for the bad first impression luh. haha u arh, basically envy all the way lo. your piano grades arh, like make me wanna learn again. i so regretted not learning music when i was young can. i still rmb i say dont wan. how wrong i was. now the interest starts to poke in, and i found out i cant play those songs that i like, those songs that can truly express my feelings in that particular instant. i long for that ability. =D wah im sure you chao zai le luh. but nevertheless, jiayou. heh i dno what u think about me, guess it might not be positive at all, since.. nevermind. you get the point =D shiing-first impression: i really dno, random i guess x) haha sorry. u and zijin skate well wor. i keep falling down ._. haha, dat day wq told me u very random always laugh like uhhhh siao, for no particular reason. and ya, can see that during dinner. lol, very random and happy de lor, u look. but ya, u got every reason to be happy. =\ well, at least more then me... this group of people i only know mark and u this year... not very long.. ya. haha not shou2 at all lor, omg. never mind..haha. ohya and how come your ddr so pawn? and i really dno how come u're always known as muachee, i mean its less obvious than TISSUE right. that one is so OBVIOUS >.< LOL. jiayou. wah seh. took me almost two hrs to think of what i wan to write. heh, i know i seem to be 'ostracizing' myself from u guys. i dont think so, its just i dont have any sort of anything to talk about. whenever i think of something to talk about, it seems stupid and irrelevant, so...ya. it still boils down to that main problem, hm. i still rmb ice skating queuing up u all ask why i stand so far away, then i say cos u all ny hci and i wad. hmm =\ im sorry. i dont think i should see cat high as some noob school, let alone keep my distance away from u guys, i regret that. but, whenever i tell myself to change, i wun. on the actual day itself, i'll just lone at one corner again, hear u people talk about sabbaticals, csm what. ya. i dont have.. i just feel left out. i know its my fault, i seem to be the one not taking the initiative to talk, but something doesnt feel right, that something is preventing me from being the person i am when im outside with frens, and i cant seem to overcome it.. thats why.. i dont think im fit to be in prig, not fit to be in this 'family'.. sorry. OUT OF THE TOPIC: i wan watch secret! everybody say nice and everything. someone pei wo go watch can. pls.. Last Forever 11:00 PM |
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