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2/08/2008 happy new year.. today was the most un-productive day ever. slept, watch tv, slept again, watched tv again, played com, now im trying to do homework at 12am. stupid libraries should open. hm. next week's the learning journey thing. and Valentines' is approaching. i guess another supposedly special day will be spent on mugging and being alone at home again. ... but who cares about bgrs why do i feel this way? blame it on MOE and other 'things' for making me realise that studying is everything and nothing else matters. although i know deep down inside thats crap. i get jealous whenever i see couples walking hand in hand. especially people i know. why should i even feel jealous. is it because everyone else i know are getting into relationships? somehow i feel that everyone can excel in this field.. 'cept maybe me. i should be happy for them, yet theres this nagging feeling somehow i want to experience it myself, even though i keep saying bgrs are useless and putting up a false front outside but i cant, i dont even have a single chance, i even have problems socializing why. maybe because we dont have a girls' school opposite ours. maybe its because i think too much about o levels to care about other stuff i know im going to regret this, yet what can i do i miss my pri sch frens. so many of them are in ip schools can. i cant even see them i havent seen alot of them for 3 years. they wont probably care anyway. but they are the reason why im so motivated. im scared if i continue like this, even if i go to hc, i wont even dare to talk to them, then whats the point of it all? i cant juggle between my social life and my studies. with so many people dao-ing, i've even lost confidence to talk to people, esp girls. the fact is that they ignore people, a lot. or maybe they just want to ignore me okay i shall do my homework. heres a song, dedicated to 'i dont even who' its quite nice. 专辑：恶作剧之吻原声带 我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密 这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明 我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定 风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息 一切新鲜有点冒险 请告诉我怎么走到终点 没有人了解 没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋 我想我会开始想念你 可是我刚刚才遇见了你 我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧 我想我已慢慢喜欢你 因为我拥有爱情的勇气 我任性投入你给的恶作剧 你给的恶作剧 我才发现你很耀眼 请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼 没有人了解 没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋 情人节那一天，希望没有情人的，能心有所属。有的，我也没什么好说的了 Last Forever 12:04 AM |
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