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3/08/2008 feeling a bit better.. but still thinking that it was unfair. everytime music and np clashed, i would ditch my passion away for np because i thought that i cannot let my squad down. my passion leh. wth. now im playing atrociously every week, im getting worse week by week. still i went. i had music yesterday after parade.. thats why i had to go early. i have no mood to stay anyway. guess why? because there was ATF today. i cancelled my lesson and brought it forward. wed thurs fri sat all got events. went to all. wed training, homework didnt have time to practice. thurs polish like mad plus homework and school things didnt have time to practice. friday got parade cannot practice. then came back home start already. and i played like some dog. i took taxi to changi today for the 2nd time in my life. $22.00 kind of angry because i had reached bishan market when ken called. wtf. that time my grandmother's funeral + cremation. i still went to np. wth? im supposed to slack and mourn for her and not go back. was damn sad already that time. where got mood. still i went back. i dedicated so much of my bloody time. and now this is what i get. there wasnt a single time in any major event that i was happy in. o 's' chinese results. A2 i was devastated. because a lot of people did not deserve A1. physics SPA. density no unit? wth. chem SPA. mistaken petri dish for evaporation dish. wth. parade. didnt promote. wth. now i cant get SPF badge. sometimes i wonder if you must be on good terms with higher ups to be able to promote. i guess so. wth. now where got time to chiong. also no motivation. today. ATF was okay.. quite fun. went there feeling moody because of yesterday and everyone ditched me and i wasted $22 instead of spending $7. felt better but i am still feeling pissed. didnt really show it though. no point. i am at home now. i am going to do my homework now. Last Forever 6:16 PM |
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