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4/22/2008 i want to pass out NOW. i am getting unhappier and unhappier by the day because there are so many things pressing down on me on from all sides, meaning cca, studies etc. it is really a challenge to forget about things and move ahead, but even the strong will succumb to these things if they pile up too much. how should i put it. cca wise- not getting spf and my rank is already hell. tried to forget them but people are so nice and they really helped in bringing it back into my mind. HSK, whatthehell is service day compared to an international examination. fortunately, i have learnt to prioritize, and i shall pon events which i deem not important for others which are more. my music lessons are affected as well. everybody's unhappy. i hate secondary 4 life. AND CAN I MAKE THIS CLEAR ONCE AND FOR ALL I AM NOT F***ING STUDYING TO WIN ANYONE WHY DO I HAVE TO REPEAT THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN I JUST WANT TO GO TO HWACHONG MY PHONE JUST GOT STOLEN AND ALL MY MOTIVATIONAL MESSAGES ARE ALL GONE. IM DEVASTATED AND FURTHERMORE ITS NOT SO MUCH A MATTER OF WINNING OR LOSING. ITS SO SUPERFICIAL PLEASE. I HAVE ALREADY LOST PART OF MYSELF IN THOSE MESSAGES AND IM AT A LOSS AS TO WHAT I WANT TO USE TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO DO WELL. CURRENTLY NOTHING IS HAPPENING AND IM LOSING IT. MY SOCIAL LIFE SUCKS AND IM JUST SPENDING TIME WITH MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY. THIS IS WHAT WE DEEM AS 'NO LIFE'. SO CAN I JUST 'STUDY' FOR MY OWN 'LIFE'? Last Forever 6:18 PM |
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