0 lvl person who get 6 pts

2008-04-30T05:31:00.003+08:00

i like 鬼鬼 & 王子. because they look perfect together.
well with the sweetness of it, all so-ever deluding people into wishful thinking about their perfect love life, i guess it would be nice to include a few songs..
hope that everyone has this sentiment in mind so that we can all make this harsh world a nicer place to live in. <<< okay -_-

常常偷偷背诵大人唱的情歌
以为可以当作预习爱的功课
明应该学以致用公式全都出错
看着你擦身而过
都呆了
交卷前一分钟答案都还空着
应该怎么组合两个人的几何
理论和现实不同从来不曾想过
面对爱情的学测
都当了
我应该是坏还是乖
你喜欢彩色或黑白
你的笑代表拒绝
还是等待
答案我解不开
我应该被动或耍赖
你喜欢高山或是海
或许爱来得太快
忘了所有对白

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nice song mei posted.. =)

do not continue watching if you do not want the atmosphere to be utterly destroyed.

2008-04-22T18:59:00.002+08:00

stop it.

2008-04-22T18:18:00.003+08:00

i want to pass out NOW. i am getting unhappier and unhappier by the day because there are so many things pressing down on me on from all sides, meaning cca, studies etc. it is really a challenge to forget about things and move ahead, but even the strong will succumb to these things if they pile up too much.
how should i put it.

cca wise- not getting spf and my rank is already hell. tried to forget them but people are so nice and they really helped in bringing it back into my mind. HSK, whatthehell is service day compared to an international examination. fortunately, i have learnt to prioritize, and i shall pon events which i deem not important for others which are more. my music lessons are affected as well. everybody's unhappy.

i hate secondary 4 life.

AND CAN I MAKE THIS CLEAR ONCE AND FOR ALL I AM NOT F***ING STUDYING TO WIN ANYONE WHY DO I HAVE TO REPEAT THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN I JUST WANT TO GO TO HWACHONG MY PHONE JUST GOT STOLEN AND ALL MY MOTIVATIONAL MESSAGES ARE ALL GONE. IM DEVASTATED AND FURTHERMORE ITS NOT SO MUCH A MATTER OF WINNING OR LOSING. ITS SO SUPERFICIAL PLEASE. I HAVE ALREADY LOST PART OF MYSELF IN THOSE MESSAGES AND IM AT A LOSS AS TO WHAT I WANT TO USE TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO DO WELL. CURRENTLY NOTHING IS HAPPENING AND IM LOSING IT. MY SOCIAL LIFE SUCKS AND IM JUST SPENDING TIME WITH MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY. THIS IS WHAT WE DEEM AS 'NO LIFE'. SO CAN I JUST 'STUDY' FOR MY OWN 'LIFE'?

2008-04-19T16:15:00.002+08:00

i see people fretting over SI ranks, BUC, SPF, 1st class.
i should be the one emo-ing and throwing tantrums.
its equivalent to one whining over a 95/100 research paper
while the 50s and the 60 odds are within earshot.
and somehow i seem to recall people proclaiming their impassivity for the badge.
nevermind.

anyway yesterday was a complete fiasco. going to RG was a painful yet enriching experience.
i envy all the IP schools, not just in the educational aspect but.. i guess in their social confidence and all. although i really dont see the point in using such posh vocabulary we only see in essays.. lol. haha well.. saw some people there and it was really heartwarming. i havent seen erin since she left chongfu in primary 3. we didnt talk, but i guess the nexus didnt really require words to put across. .... so much for time wasted. on a lighter note, their school is really nice and i realise all IP school compounds are particularly outstanding. although i do hope some of them stop suanning people.

today was quite an experience as well! first time really playing volleyball and i guess we didnt really do too bad. the incident at the end was amusing though.
anyway i didnt ps people on thurs. i just prioritized. the HSK incident had thought me how to prioritize, even if it meant my SPF badge, but since i didnt get the rank. so it was wasted. TWICE. TWICE leh.

okay great i posted. ..^^

do you guys really really care.

2008-03-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

o.o yes! i am going to get a VAIO laptop tomorrow. -.-
later my results drop.
nevermind.
Jay Chou has a new song!
its called Secret Garden.
but the full version isnt out yet.
..
Tsubasa Chronicles Episode 43.

2008-03-08T18:16:00.005+08:00

feeling a bit better..
but still thinking that it was unfair.
everytime music and np clashed,
i would ditch my passion away for np because i thought that i cannot let my squad down.
my passion leh. wth.
now im playing atrociously every week, im getting worse week by week.
still i went.
i had music yesterday after parade..
thats why i had to go early.
i have no mood to stay anyway.
guess why?
because there was ATF today.
i cancelled my lesson and brought it forward.
wed thurs fri sat all got events.
went to all.
wed training, homework didnt have time to practice.
thurs polish like mad plus homework and school things didnt have time to practice.
friday got parade cannot practice.
then came back home start already.
and i played like some dog.

i took taxi to changi today for the 2nd time in my life. $22.00
kind of angry because i had reached bishan market when ken called. wtf.

that time my grandmother's funeral + cremation.
i still went to np.
wth?
im supposed to slack and mourn for her and not go back.
was damn sad already that time.
where got mood.
still i went back.

i dedicated so much of my bloody time.
and now this is what i get.
there wasnt a single time in any major event that i was happy in.
o 's' chinese results. A2 i was devastated. because a lot of people did not deserve A1.
physics SPA. density no unit? wth.
chem SPA. mistaken petri dish for evaporation dish. wth.
parade. didnt promote. wth.
now i cant get SPF badge.
sometimes i wonder if you must be on good terms with higher ups to be able to promote.
i guess so.
wth. now where got time to chiong.
also no motivation.

today. ATF was okay.. quite fun.
went there feeling moody because of yesterday and everyone ditched me and i wasted $22 instead of spending $7.
felt better but i am still feeling pissed.
didnt really show it though.
no point.
i am at home now.
i am going to do my homework now.

2008-03-06T20:11:00.003+08:00

i have a bad feeling about tomorrow.
and my bad feelings are always confirmed to materialize.
it has always been like this for any major events.
hopes cannot be placed too high.
.. zz

2008-03-03T23:38:00.001+08:00

Saigo no Kajitsu rocks! :D
okay i seriously love Tokyo Revelations.
although i havent watched it yet o.o
i guess this is better than elemental gelade? -.-
anime songs are nice =)
...
why cant i be in their world

2008-03-02T15:15:00.003+08:00

i am a slacker. i have not finished my 2 english compositions and the chinese one. shall rush them after i get back from tuition at 6pm.

feeling a bit lonely.
everyone prefers secondary school to primary school. i wonder why..
i guess no one remembers me anymore.
so why am i working so hard so that i can see them in jc?
wont it be for nothing..
is it because i miss them?
even if i do they dont.
isnt this similar to Tsubasa?
why does Syaoran work so hard anyway

2008-03-01T00:05:00.003+08:00

English - 56% or 57%
A Maths - 83.3%
E Maths - 80%
Chemistry - 72.2&
Physics - 82%
Combined Humanities - 90%
Geography - 78%
Chinese - 64%

Language sucks. both maths A2 because of some dumb simulation system. so MSG from 2.0 become 2.25 -.- nevermind. at least i didnt let myself down

2008-02-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

I realised i havent posted my results yet. shall do so tomorrow

2008-02-26T22:53:00.003+08:00

aiya which debate doesnt have rebuttals.
which controversy doesnt have heated arguments and different viewpoints.
shouldnt have brought up the birthday thing because no matter how you look at it someone is still going to disagree. so i shall not discuss this anymore.

you are right. i dont have good friends. even if i do, i will get disappointed again so this year i am going to stay at home because no one will care about me anyway.

Homework: Compre / Reflections x 2 / Maths Paper 2000
i finished Tsubasa Episode 31 today. and rewatched the latter half of Death Note 2.
chao slack. so going to try and sleep at 3am today.

2008-02-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

didnt know my post can invoke so many personal views.
of course, it is impossible to phrase the paragraphs perfectly so there will be some misconception that i might be petty or whatsoever. ya so i am here to make it clear to everyone that it is not because i dont receive presents or any dedications that i am kind of complaining. it is because ( as i mentioned before).. nevermind. to put it in simpler terms it means that its okay if you didnt give a present or wish someone happy birthday, but if you do that to one person and completely ignores the another isnt that bias. no explanation (or rather expiation) can suffice.
my birthday is in the midst of o's'. go out luh.
although i must admit, a happy birthday from someone (or some people) will thoroughly brighten up my day even if i dont get anything. but that person doesnt seem to be from 4-3. of course, appreciation is natural, but the degree is different. yup.

i see only the usual people getting presents. i dont want to mention names. you know yourself

2008-02-25T21:02:00.003+08:00

wth. i hate physics.
i just screwed o's'. there was never once in my entire life when i was happy about results of major exams.
now seeing people rejoice like some complete losers just because for that mark, i officially announce that my new motivation to mug is to win people, not for myself, just to make their b3 look like an f9. at least until i calm down

2008-02-25T00:43:00.005+08:00

like wow. Leap year. which means people born on the 29th feb turn four years old. =S
speaking of birthdays, i am requested to bring $10 for ivan's birthday present tomorrow.
and i feel that i must comment on this particular issue.

I feel that birthday celebrations, cheers, events etc. in our class are always inclined towards certain individuals only. I do not recall some people ( roughly know who la ) getting birthday presents from the class and all. Not even a single song, let alone a present. -_- I must say it really turns me off to fork out cash to buy presents for people within Group 1.

*Okay Group 1 includes people who receive presents every year
* Group 2 are those who dont

I mean, like when its a G2-er's birthday everyone doesnt sing, cheer, buy anything. Of course, I am not implying that every birthday must be accompanied by a gift, but buying presents every time for G1-ers and singing songs and all that totally negates the validity of the reasons for the absence of these items. Why should someone be different if we are a class? I do not see [correct me if I am wrong] Leonard getting presents, I do not see Shi Hao getting presents, I do not see JiaJin getting presents, I do not see Timothy getting any presents, I do not see Mok getting any presents < ( this list is not exhaustive ) Hell I dont even see myself getting presents/songs from the class. Guess why, because my birthday, or anyone else's out there, had fallen on a Sunday, and is once again totally ignored by many (not all-but most of my class). What the hell does this show? Once again i emphasize on my point that I am not implying that every birthday must be accompanied by a gift. I am absolutely not angry at why I did not receive a present, so dont get me wrong. I am just stating the facts. So I am slightly unhappy with buying presents for people falling under Group 1. A present forcefully bought bears no thought

4-3 people who see this. kindly reflect and ask yourself whether what is stated in the above paragraph is true.

I feel like scolding people. Hell I did NOT receive any presents for the last three years. NO I DID NOT WTF CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT. (okay thanks for the cake last year though) wth la. and assuming everyone is forking out 5 or 10 dollars. Does a present cost $(33x5) or $(33x10)? Is the price that exorbitant? No right. This is outrageous. I didnt even receive so much as a pathetic piece of tissue these few years and just for One Birthday we are paying hundreds of dollars. Class 4-3. If you all just celebrate a few people's birthday, then what is there for us to be happy about. Hell I have already lost interest in celebrating birthdays. Even mine. They are just not special in any way. NOT ONE BLOODY BIT UNIQUE AND HEARTWARMING. It's like an annual routine. Come And Go. Pointless. Like did anyone call me out and go out to celebrate? no. and im stuck with celebrating birthdays with everyone for other people. like wtf.

There is O level SPA tomorrow and i dont want to waste any more time making myself angry. I am going to read my notes.

2008-02-19T00:29:00.015+08:00

At Episode 15, some cherry-blossom country -_-
okay i neglected my homework. zz
Read snippets of the upcoming plot on wikipedia..
It says that Fay loses his left eye and turns into a vampire
It says that Kurogane cut off his left arm o.o
It says that I am currently observing a Cloned Sakura and Syaoran.

Okay nevermind, shall continue watching. :D
Episode 15
Go listen to the OST

i hate my present situation. my social skills suck. i keep getting scolded cos of this. and people think i ostracise myself. why? blame M.O.E for making people neglect their social life

2008-02-17T23:08:00.006+08:00

yay tsubasa chronicles rocks.

hell i dont have time to watch episode 9 -_- shall put aside mugging time for this someday.. its really nice (=
i like tracks One to Seven, i havent heard much of 8 and 9 though -.-
left with geog humanities and eng paper 1

who can resist the temptation to click this alluring link
www.stevenlim.net

'Happy'?!?!?!?!? Valentine's Day

2008-02-14T23:10:00.005+08:00

today was a very significant day for me.
spent the day tying knots (wait.. no i didnt i was stoning) and cutting hair.
ate dinner and saw girls holding flowers everywhere.
i tried to delve deep into my memories and search for a day on which i received a f-l-o-w-e-r. couldnotfindit. so next i looked back at all the Valentine's Days I had.

1992 - I was not born
1993 - I was born but i guess i spent my Valentine's Day in the hospital
1994 - Probably sleeping or playing with kiddy toys.
1995 - Probably crying aloud because I want to drink milk
1996 - Probably dreaming about dinosaurs and other imaginary species
1997 - Drawing and colouring colouring books
1998 - Playing Freddi Fish on computer
1999 - Probably playing with Playstation I
2000 - Celebrating the millennium at KFC cos there was a special meal of some sort
2001 - Probably watching Pokemon at home. (kids central was nicer back then)
2002 - Doing homework
2003 - Celebrating Total Defence Day
2004 - Studying a bit for PSLE
2005 - Did nothing.i bowed down to fate and destiny and accepted the harsh reality
2006 - Emo-ed. or being over emotional because its a period of time when your primary school friends start to get boy and girl friends and you are stunned at how successful they are. Comparatively, you cant even ask a girl out.
2007 - Did nothing. sent some people happy Valentine's Day at midnight (=
2008 - Course, cut hair for hair check, stoned from 3.30-5.30 not receiving any happy valentines day messages. but i couldnt care less. its an annual experience, its a routine, its tradition! Facts dont lie. Of course im typing this with half an hour left to midnight and i am going to start my work.

Happy Significant Valentine's Day.

2008-02-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

谁不希望自己是聪明的人
谁不希望什么都能一百分
谁能希望自己又呆又傻又愚蠢
谁会愿意听到你真的好笨

有些事情就是这样的残忍
有些道路没有直通那扇门
有些游戏结果不一定要获胜
有些收获不在终点只在过程

我们不会心灰意冷
我们会给自己掌声
我不是你想象的笨
我也有我自己的门
其实你不是不能
只是你肯不肯
给自己多一个机会
因为我们都是有用的人

我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党
我们目无尊长对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样
我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙
学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

i love these songs. esp heartening when you have problems with studies.
really portrays the elitist education system in singapore.
some people feel useless (im talking about those who care)
dont be.
as long as you have the HEART and DETERMINATION to do well, you can do it.
this applies to everyone as well.

you know maybe i should change to xanga or lj as well -.-

2008-02-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

omg
RE: recent edison chen controversy

credits to grace (whom i dont know really know haha)

2008-02-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

school's starting.
TWO days later. like wow -.-
okay yes im in a hurry to get back my papers.
not chem and languages though

today was okay.
spent $3 on an arcade game

2008-02-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

happy new year..
today was the most un-productive day ever.
slept, watch tv, slept again, watched tv again, played com, now im trying to do homework at 12am. stupid libraries should open.

hm. next week's the learning journey thing.
and Valentines' is approaching.
i guess another supposedly special day will be spent on mugging and being alone at home again. ...
but who cares about bgrs
why do i feel this way?
blame it on MOE and other 'things'
for making me realise that studying is everything and nothing else matters.
although i know deep down inside thats crap.
i get jealous whenever i see couples walking hand in hand.
especially people i know.
why should i even feel jealous.
is it because everyone else i know are getting into relationships?
somehow i feel that everyone can excel in this field.. 'cept maybe me.
i should be happy for them,
yet theres this nagging feeling
somehow i want to experience it myself,
even though i keep saying bgrs are useless and putting up a false front outside
but i cant,
i dont even have a single chance,
i even have problems socializing
why.
maybe because we dont have a girls' school opposite ours.
maybe its because i think too much about o levels to care about other stuff
i know im going to regret this, yet what can i do
i miss my pri sch frens.
so many of them are in ip schools can.
i cant even see them
i havent seen alot of them for 3 years.
they wont probably care anyway.
but they are the reason why im so motivated.
im scared if i continue like this,
even if i go to hc,
i wont even dare to talk to them,
then whats the point of it all?
i cant juggle between my social life and my studies.
with so many people dao-ing, i've even lost confidence to talk to people, esp girls.
the fact is that they ignore people, a lot.
or maybe they just want to ignore me
okay i shall do my homework.
heres a song,
dedicated to 'i dont even who'
its quite nice.

专辑：恶作剧之吻原声带

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密

这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明

我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定

风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险

请告诉我怎么走到终点

没有人了解

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你

可是我刚刚才遇见了你

我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧

我想我已慢慢喜欢你

因为我拥有爱情的勇气

我任性投入你给的恶作剧

你给的恶作剧

我才发现你很耀眼

请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼

没有人了解

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

情人节那一天，希望没有情人的，能心有所属。有的，我也没什么好说的了

2008-02-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

in the morning i went to pay my respects to my ah ma.
didnt really want to mull over past events so i tried not to look back.

but upon arrival at that same place where she was cremated, with her picture lying in one of those many small compartments, the quiescent memories started to resurface again. thus i retreated to one desolated corner and started cogitating about the times which i spent with her alone.

she was as close to me as a parent, maybe even more. with my mother and father working to support us, i spent my days as a little toddler wandering about the 4th story apartment in bishan ( i forgot the block number )with my ah ma beside me.

Every morning without fail, she would bring a basket and take hold of my dimunitive (okay maybe little) hands and we would make our way down to the market and buy eggs and listen to the rooster's early morning squawks. yes they didnt make those majestic noises you see in documnetaries. she would buy some veggies and i followed her and i think there was once she fell. i vividly remember myself crying because i was so frightened. After that we would return and i would proceed with my koala bear show. i forgot the name of the show but it was like a gray koala bear as the protagonist and with other little furry animals as supporting characters. my ah ma would sit beside me and we would whittle our time away just like this, carefree and with no freaking worries similar to that of today's.

Then we moved out.

So life continued and she stayed at many houses all this while because i had a lot of uncles and aunties. she came to our house only once or twice in years, i wanted her to come but theres no one to look after her.. we had school and my parents had to go to work.

two years ago she fell in the toilet and they had to amputate(?) the toe. last year she had a stroke and started to lose her memory, including those memories i mentioned earlier. it was dreadfully heart-wrenching when I had to be introduced and re-introduced to her again and again. But then i kept persuading my parents to go back home earlier because i was exhausted. after all, there was still the next saturday.

Then she had another stroke in december. Hospitalised. We went to visit her that day.. I went in and saw her and i just broke down. I sat beside her at the small table and held her hands. Went out occasionally to have a drink but stayed until late in the night before going home. believe it or not there are tears in my eyes right now, while im typing out this very sentence. ..

She passed away two days later. received the call at 10:30pm. next morning went to her funeral place already. it really came like a tidal wave, there was nothing i could do, except to painfully savour those last moments in the hospital. She was cremated on Christmas Day. so on the whole i had a rather agonizing holiday, the worst in my entire life. then the priest said that we had to go down every now and then to pay our respects to my ah ma and ah gong. my ah gong passed away even before i was born, so we lacked that particular nexus which could have bonded us together.

so i went back there today. and sadly i had to rush back for tuition.

so here i am typing out this heartfelt post, wondering if any of you can empathize.
like i said just now in my message to someone, all i wish now is to find some day to go to the beach, write a letter to my ah ma, place it inside a glass bottle and let it flow out to sea. i know its kind of traditional and an only-in-drama-serials kind of thing but i feel a need to do so, so can someone accompany me someday?

i really cant express myself through words, i never told anyone how much they meant to me, i always seem to be real quiet. .. still ah ma if you can see this, i really want to say i love you, i will never ever forget you ..

i need to wash my face.

2008-02-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

stupid la stop it zz. you think same pri sch then can bully me iszit.

2008-02-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

playing bfme2. and sometimes can you people try not to find fault with everything i do? dont let your thoughts wander off unnecessarily. why cant you just live and let live. excessive comments wont do any good.

2008-01-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

yo! here i am, immensely dubious about reading chinese, i mean.. like there's only the format for composition? ok some things lately... jay chou's new single for the movie ._. okay.. many people hated it initially, including me. but i guess anything will seem nice if we know how to appreciate it. ya.. so it doesnt sound that bad and it doesnt sound that fantastic either.
started watching tsubasa chronicles! ^^ okay actually i chanced upon it after watching guess guess guess on saturday.. it was the first episode and it was really nice. what really caught my attention initially was the word CLAMP. haha so watched the whole thing and the plot is kind of sad ):
after prelims im going to watch kungfu dunk and make sure i get my super mario galaxy -.- rest for just a few days and its back to the daily routine.
speaking of prelims.. i am certain i've secured at least 4A1s. although we had 7 papers already.. fretting over geography and e maths.. its kinda "median" but i suppose i can scrape an A1 for these two. Chemistry, it would take a miracle for me to get A1, hmm think i'll get A2. left with the language papers.
and i just want to get good results, i dont want to be number one how many times must i say this! its for myself, why cant i strive toward a better future D: zz
SPA is end of feb.

2008-01-27T19:27:00.001+08:00

i cant believe im watching animes again. but its nice.. so.. xP

2008-01-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

i finally realise that no matter how much you study, it wont help unless you're born clever. i didnt sleep before 31st and this is what i got. moe go to hell. i dont want to blog anymore

2008-01-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

16.5 more hours, i realise im all alone, nobody really cares. nevermind. it doesnt concern all of you anyway. bye

2008-01-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

What Lee Wei Rong Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

hm 80% true

2008-01-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

its the final countdown indeed. approximately 40 hrs 35 min. as much i as hope that the results wont jeopardize my hopes of getting into hc, theres nothing i can do if i dont get A1, siann. oh god give me strength to look at my certificate on thurs.

2008-01-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

its just approximately 64 hours or so. im scared stiff. well some people dont really care. and some dont even need to.

2008-01-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

sorry for the misunderstanding ): i just hope you arent fabricating lies. yay ^^
went to library just now, not very productive because of certain psychological impetus, in light of surprising facts. lol.. went to popular as well.. bought my NEW SHARP calculator. oh yeah the manual's big and complicated. purchased ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS soundtrack (: maybe some of you will be grumbling and saying things like ' er diao i bought that ages ago' okay fine i admit im a bit lag cos im poor. haha.. whatever ._.

2008-01-19T17:14:00.001+08:00

went for cip today! collecting newspapers ._. with our hands our hearts and our minds or whatever. it was kind of boring cos we finished real fast and then still cannot go D:
after that wanted to go watch AVP-R but they said you cant watch NC 16 movies until you've had your birthday so decided to watch Cloverfield at yishun.

Personal Rating: 4.5/5.0
Comments: Cloverfield is short, lets say around 1hr 15min, but you will think that 2h 15min had already passed when you walk out of the cinema. these movies are good..nice and saves time. This movie is a must-watch! its about this monster which popped out of nowhere and started to terrorize the city. The first few minutes were kinda boring but when the action starts, it doesnt really end until the credits . Its full of suspense and really thrilling, you'll die for Cloverfield 2.. if they ever film it. The whole movie's from a viewpoint of a videocam, idea's authentic and its really interesting, although its kinda shaky and makes you dizzy at times. Its better than lame Godzilla anyway -.- And the reason why its not 5.0/5.0 is because of the ending, similar to I Am Legend, disappointing and doesnt really set the story for part 2 so maybe there isnt one. And the protagonists died zzz ): sad. except for one. They didnt show if the monster died, i hope not so theres part 2. yeah. okay i guess thats enough. spoilers (:

The Mist is next. wahhaha or maybe i should study instead. zzz

2008-01-18T04:38:00.001+08:00

here i am blogging at 4:40am haha, i dozed off just now ._.
someone took my maths five-year series so im left with some 'mangled' notes and heymath, which lacks examples. thinking of reading humanities, and i havent prepared uniform yet ._. wahh real tired. okay bye!

i have no intention of pawning the whole class or even the school in results, im not even up to it and im not in the least interested, i just want to do well so that i can go to a good jc, all the number ones can leave to those ambitious freaks who want to be president or something of that sort, or should they be dubbed as 'pure muggers' -.-

2008-01-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

further crossing my crossed fingers. if i can have three wishes now they will be as follows:

1) chinese A1
2) o levels 8A1s
3) excel in everything i do / have another three wishes

x.x still got the exhaustive 14 essays to familiarize with. and thats for prelims -.-
not everybody's taking the o levels, it feels weird. its like a national examination thats not for the whole nation. whats the point. alot of seniors come back i feel envious, they got nothing to worry about le. yeah well, with that said, i think i shall go and worry on.

maybe i should go to our whiteboard tomorrow and write 349 days to HCJC as well. wtf. its alr enough with all the IP thing, now they're doing it on purpose to aggravate us. 我真的是看错人了，dam disappointing.

2008-01-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

有一利必有一弊 if we want a good english teacher guess we just have to lose the chinese one. not saying that the chinese teacher isnt good, its just that the things he teach are just not pragmatic. i mean who cares if someone is a retard or a genius, zz all the things that we might possibly be interested in are the usual format of compositions and new idioms and all that. ._. on a sidenote, singapore chinese textbooks are useless..

maths addition formulae and double angle formulae test was easy, hope can attain good results. although i was a bit stuck cos my 2nd function wasnt working, forced to skip questions and finish proving first.

my chem tutor is kinda gonecase.. Mr(?!?!!) of K is 39.

2008-01-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

happy with myself after gettin back my 24/25 mini-test paper. cannot be complacent, shall go do double angle formulae questions which are like super hard

2008-01-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

在山腰间飘逸的红雨随著北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃想唤醒被遗弃的爱情雪花已铺满了地深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

am i even doing what im supposed to be doing.
i realised that some people are real cocky even after 30 or 40 years. i hate these people.
hey..

2008-01-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

cca orientation is finally over (: okay its quite an achievement-43 entries, none confirmed though. haha went to eat and came back home, now doing eng compre ): tomorrow's going to be tiring again. must reach school by 0730 and then after that theres optional physics remedial which i am going to attend. daily routine of studying, if theres time. so i shall go find somewhere nice and quiet and read books zz. e maths test sort of got 1 or 2 marks gone le zz. okay i go do compre le.. byebye
i dont know what happened but you've changed, you werent that person i knew a few weeks back

2008-01-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

finally. skin care products $175. so cheap lol, no la parents still say expensive when it concerns the social confidence of their poor son. how realistic can people get nowadays. anw after hearing first hand jc orientation experiences by j1 people, im getting kinda scared, sounds scary.. asking a girl to dance. well.. i cant dance anw xP.
i shall get rid of my pimples and start life afresh. yay, wait for 3 or 4 more weeks.

2008-01-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

wtf i hate pimples la. like cannot disappear one i've been living with it for 2 years plus and im freaking sick of it. everybody see me like that also sian i look at myself in the mirror also sian wtf. no self-confidence one la. i got no time to worry about this but i just cant get it off my head. how to sleep early when theres like tons of homework

2008-01-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

Chinese o levels: Paper 1:50/70
Paper 2:55/70
Oral:25/40
Listening:14/20

which adds up to 144/200?! give me 6 more marks please.
for those of you who are thinking that these are my results, dont be lame ._.
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if i get A1 i treat people to dinner.

2008-01-06T10:19:00.000+08:00

i just threw a chair at my brother and im proud of it and i feel happy because he cried. those two idiots play computer and Wii almost bloody everyday and one is even p6, i dont want to see him going to some dumb sch but its his choice. just now they locked the door and played audi and i was like freaking angry cos i need to do my homework. so i turned off the wireless modem and the main switch located inside the storeroom. so they came out and the stupid guy took a pillow to hit my head, so i took a chair and hit back. shuang. i know for those who have brothers then see this will feel im weird and violent cos you all love your brothers very much. for me its plain torture.

2008-01-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

i want to be shorter, i think i look like some oversized weird person. its affecting me again and i dont want to think about anything else but i just have to worry about this stupid thing

2008-01-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

lots of things are going wrong ): theres no time to talk to people like in the holidays, theres no time to fool around and waste time.. theres just no time for anything else except for concentrating on studies and preparing for testimonial. my nyaa cip isnt half finished yet, zz. suddenly dsa kinda sucks too, everything is going in the wrong direction,moe's contradicting itself, people are dying and some students are getting what they dont deserve. wth. okay i still need to do my homework so yea.. )):

2008-01-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

i want to do the 15 people thing quiz but i guess i shall leave it till tomorrow or something (:

2008-01-01T18:13:00.001+08:00

frm tomorrow onwards, its studying season. as much as i dread the reopening of the sch and all the upcoming work, there is something called 'working for a cause'. and that is to secure a place in hc. thats the present plan, but maybe i'll have to alter it sometime within this year, i dont know. i hope not.. i just have to brush up on my chemistry and be better at remembering stuff, thats all.i dont see anything special in a new year haha, dont know why others are all so euphoric, maybe it was cos of the various countdowns held in like every where in singapore, of which locations range frm big big landmarks to small small homes.. 5 4 3 2 1 0 only ma. i was like watching the channel 5 countdown then until 0 then i was like uhhh? lol..

had 6 gracious class gathering yesterday! in summary it was short. cos some people left halfway ): okay alot. so.. on a very fine yesterday me warren and xinghe met up at three and went to plaza sing via mrt. they said to find them at carrefour so we did. all the guys were there and some girls.. haha ruoxi and kunhang didnt change much, for cherie and amanda it was like uh, completely different ya (: okay so i didnt go around asking whether if i had changed or not. that would be weird. said hello because i promised cherie i will say hello and i got weird stares and i guess the others thought i was either really mad or really lame ._. it was awkward i must admit. so after commenting on how big plaza sing is because of all the levels and how 'high' it was, we went up to the top level.. i think.. and started stoning while waiting for others and the movie. i have fear of heights, so when i looked down at the first floor and saw that there were like bloody basements i was a bit freaked out. cos it was like very HIGH. =( but i never tell anyone haha. decided that movie popcorn was expensive, so went DOWN to 7-11 to buy 1.5 litres mineral bottle, the first time i spent so little on movie food. and i didnt finish it lol. okay nvm, we went up again and noticed that the others had come:eunice melissa sheena and sandy.. i thought that not really alot of people turned up. bit sad ): and so i was almost like omg and all that beacuse of sth. and told myself its lame and it was just wishful thinking. haha ): watched i am legend. okay fine maybe cos the setting was so bloody deserted that it was a bit sian seeing some lone guy with a doggie running around hunting deers. i didnt know what was it for.. was it so that he can test the anti-virus after he had injected the KV into them? i dont know.. haha those rats. rahh! the vampire parts were quite exciting esp during the drive-car-and-chiong part and the last 20 minutes or so.. overall it was quite short and its okay la.. dno why people say it was disappointing haha. okay la maybe the ending was kinda crap and there wasnt much action and all.. and the monsters really scary meh ._. haha. kept pretty quiet thorughout the show not because theres no one to talk to its because i want to let others concentrate on the movie and i can hear weird noises beside lol. it seemed that willie yihao and yifan were making funny noises and annoying sheena and sandy. okay fine they were a bit noisy i must admit. sorry! haha. and the seats were like so up front. ._. then must tai2 tou2. zz movie ended. went out yifan and willie had a bet. time crisis 2 dno get more points or what bet $10 so we went in and crowded around while they shooted. not bad la haha i found out the location of like one more 5k soldier. thought it was real noisy and my eardrums were like screaming so i went out with warren. the girls were there stoning so i asked if they were eating dinner or going yifan's hse. i dont know what happened but they said go and eat._. so we went to take mrt and it turned out that some of the girls didnt go his hse.. i mean its like a bit sad la. but frm a certain reliable source 'we' said that you all dont go then dont go lor. i didnt lor! ): i wanted to go and eat with everyone. and since the others were like oh ok lets go so i had no choice but to follow. so next time dont like that liao leh. must cater for everyone so its everyone's decision on where to go! (: if there is a next time -.- so only cherie amanda and ruoxi and all the guys except yihao came. went to eat at some random place and passed by a playground after that so we played blind mice and trust me it hurt. nobody told me anything when i was like walking in front of some bar and then i knocked into it lor. so pain.. and then yifan accidentally smacked me in the face.. my specs alr very bent liao can. went to his hse take cards and monopoly, we didnt use the latter._. went beside the pool and played dno what. cos i dont know how to play, and im proud of it okay. learnt cheat, or bluff or whatever though haha. then it was getting late so we left and yifan willie and xinghe and elffred went away. took bus with the others and alighted at yishun mrt and went home to go msn and see whos online haha!
ok la overall it was real nice to see everyone again, although i really wished we hadnt been so distant with each other, i want to talk okay! but its like theres nth to talk abt and i would look real weird. and the guys and girls were like seperated haha. hmm.. its like that de lor.. so sad! ): ya la can see that nobody wants to talk to me. ):

tomorrow's school. sort of dreaded it after the gathering cos it was like seeing everyone was so nice and then sch just have to reopen, so future gatherings might only be held during dec hols. and after i get my o level results and posting.. im alr scared of the chinese results. sobs D: im determined to say hello if i see anyone again so pls dont ignore me D:

2007-12-31T00:05:00.000+08:00

i hate dao-ers on msn, i always say hello but i get injurious responses and i get real hurt. so im not going to say hello or hi anymore because its pointless

2007-12-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

.. zz talk then people get angry dont talk people say i quiet. wth la i dont talk liao la

2007-12-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

homework left : english/lit
chinese
ss essay

okay i didnt go online for like 4 days or so. first time haha! today was the cremation, wont elaborate la... ya sad ): made me realise alot of things.. and this is the first time i got so hurt ): rahhh.. dont think i'll be happy for quite a while. ah ma i miss you ):

okay tomorrow need to go bai4 bai4 again, they say need to go on the 2nd 7th 21st 35th and 49th day after the cremation.

okay.. now still got what.. ohya! haha prig outing! the movie is so nicee =)went to cineleisure (is that how you spell it), my second time there.. first time watching movie there though.. haha go there nobody one lor cos very early.. so played arcade! haha its so funny watching shi ing, mark and zi jin hitting the chip-like hockey thing i dont know whats that called ):shi ing very sad ): 1 person fight 2 haha =) daytona! tell you all i will win liao.. haha! but what matters is that everyone had fun :) ok the ddr thing.. the machine cannot register the pressure changes one lor. see them play then even though got step its still a miss ): ok so we went into the theatre and watched alvin and the chipmunks! (: so nice lor haha, after that there was some suggestion that we should go and take neos._. i was like omg? that cos i havent taken any neos since 2 years old and i had only taken them with my family.. but still must pei2! so sacrifice lor.. took neos LIKE OMG WTH IM GOING TO BE LAUGHED AT. nevermind, im glad that we took the neos though. haha shi ing faster scan and send! then everyone can put as display pic =)weiqi left to collect his digital piano (omg) and we went to eat..exchanged presents and i was like nothing to give =( sorry! a bit quiet too! but better than last time right ^^. haha okay.. then we left and mark and eening went to buy something like chocolates and shi ing went to centre point and zijin and i took the train.. i alighted at amk though.. haha! fun day.. dont think we can go out like that anymore la no time le... ))): okay maybe im a bit quiet and look dam sian but i like going out with you guys (: really! ok this sounds weird.. so next time if you see i sian im actually not sian and when are you going to return my harry potter book ms ooi.

2007-12-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

okay i shall just blog a bit..
today cc com last training, reserve again. although i really dont mind, why am i always the one whose time is like wasted, this time its like ten plus trainings and i get to stone, cool yeah. xy also.. i dont know who voted for me la i just know that np is becoming more and more unfair. you cant get a chance to do things unless you are good, which leaves out others, if not how do you explain why other people's names werent read out even once.i still remember the nanyang horizon challenge thing, i reserve cos my name is last?! wth. dont say liao la.
speaking of nanyang, i have to congratulate my biao3 mei4 in getting into NYGH. haha okay so she went there today.. hm, i just hope she doesnt get mad abt hc people. her name is YiJun :D so watch out people i might just ask her to go poke you. ya.. haha
onto more serious matters. ya my grandma passed away yesterday.. initially didnt feel anything, kinda weird and stuff. but then when i was abt to sleep i sort of remembered those days when i was young and all and the times i spent with her. i couldnt take it, i just broke down. heck care the 男人眼泪不轻弹 or whatever, if you didnt cry or at least drop a single tear, you should be ashamed of yourselves. okay maybe it depends on how close that person is to you.. so i guess i really couldnt accept it. and suddenly listening to 外婆 i will like sadden. today supposedly we had some recee thing, but i had to go the funeral prep at serangoon, ya so sorry. took a cab and went to the place. saw my grandma in the coffin and like sleeping so peacefully, somehow i didnt want to see her cos i will get all sad again, but that's like, so un-filial. so i sad there and kind sobbed silently and after a while i went outside. the place was quite empty so i stoned until 5 plus, when i suggested going back home to get a few books to read if i was staying overnight. so here i am.. later i'll be going back.. o.0 im sorry if anything will clash frm today onwards to the 26th or so. i dont think i can go.. i dont know about prig.. i think i shall go ask ba.. anw sorry i dont have time to buy presents =(
ya.. so i realised that there are alot more important things than studies and being in cc com. so i really hope that everyone will cherish their time with their loved ones or you will regret it. of course, dont think anyone will consider cherishing their time spent with me.

2007-12-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

ok she just passed away. dont mind if i blow up these few days

2007-12-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

zzz just received a call frm some relative at the hospital. didnt hear the convo, but i dont think grandma's looking too good. my dad's just went off to the hospital, i hope she's okay. =( i dont think i have mood for tmr liao.. just hope that i dont wake up tmr getting bad news

2007-12-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

dont know why alot of people dont like the song D:

PAE Posting Results for CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL

By School Name

Ar Sc IB Total
ACJC 2 6 - 8
ACS (I) - - 1 1
CJC 10 20 - 30
HCI 1 9 - 10
IJC 2 3 - 5
JRJC 0 1 - 1
MI 0 2 - 2
NJC 2 57 - 59
NYJC 1 9 - 10
RJC 5 35 - 40
SAJC 8 28 - 36
SRJC 1 0 - 1
TJC 0 5 - 5
TPJC 1 5 - 6
VJC 11 38 - 49
YJC 1 2 - 3
Total 53 254 1 308

By Total Students
Ar Sc IB Total
NJC 2 57 - 59
VJC 11 38 - 49
RJC 5 35 - 40
SAJC 8 28 - 36
CJC 10 20 - 30
HCI 1 9 - 10
NYJC 1 9 - 10
ACJC 2 6 - 8
TPJC 1 5 - 6
IJC 2 3 - 5
JC 0 5 - 5
YJC 1 2 - 3
MI 0 2 - 2
ACS (I) - - 1 1
JRJC 0 1 - 1
SRJC 1 0 - 1
Total 53 254 1 308

* Data is entered as accurately as possible.

okay got this frm john. what the hell gg i think i can go play everyday

2007-12-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

... dont feel like blogging.. my grandmother's in hospital cos she's in a coma, i feel like staying there and shun bian bring some books to read, but cannot =( omg im dam scared, i hope she's okay, and i sort of sniffled a bit just now when i saw her lying there. when i was young she always brought me to bishan market look at chickens =) then buy eggs and stuff, very caring.. now she doesnt rmb me, or rather any of us.. it hurts. and when we were leaving she opened her eyes, miraculously. all of us were overjoyed. the feeling's nicer than having a Wii, being top level player in some random online game, having a gf. and to think before that i wanted to faster go home and study. then i reach there see her le i feel very remorseful. i didnt feel like leaving and i heck cared abt studying. life doesnt go on in the way you want sometimes heh.

2007-12-16T02:02:00.000+08:00

here i am, at 0200 hrs lol haha. hmm... borrowed halo 3 and omg its nice =) i complete liao..now trying legendary.. so today's CIP. honestly speaking i dont feel like going zz.
thought of christmas today.. like who am i going to spend it with lor. its always the usual stay at home stone, its like totally wasted and im like zz. cannot go out with frens meh. okay fine so my main point is still bgr. theres still one thing i dont get, why do my parents keep telling me dont get into bgr cos it'll ruin your studies and your future when other people are like going into relationships at p6 or sec 1, not saying that i want to la. so iszit true that if you're gd in your studies then you can just having as many bfs and gfs you want? Do IP people have bgrs just because they dont have o's'? zz i hope not.

eh guang liang o.0

2007-12-11T19:48:00.001+08:00

最近发现我变得有点浮躁
心情常常太好
有事没事见人就笑

已经很久没有看过自己笑
究竟什么力量
那么奇妙

从前看见爱情我就想逃跑
或许我不想再要
尝分手的味道

然而你的出现实在太刚好
我爱上这种调调 yeah

你知道
是你让我又再次
听见自己心跳
幸福得快晕倒

我知道
是你让我的生命
从此不再单调
你就是惊叹号

朋友都说我最近莫名其妙
看到人就拥抱
做事效率特别的高

我开始喜欢我现在的自己
你让我感觉
我被需要

从前看见爱情我就想逃跑
或许我不想再要
尝分手的味道

然而你的出现实在太刚好
我爱上这种调调 yeah

你知道
是你让我又再次
听见自己心跳
幸福得快晕倒

我知道
是你让我的生命
从此不再单调
你就是惊叹号

所有思绪被你占据
我的快乐都因为你
错过你有多遗憾呢

你知道
是你让我又再次
听见自己心跳
幸福得快晕倒

我知道
是你让我的生命
从此不再单调
你就是我

你知道
是你让我又再次
听见自己心跳
幸福得快晕倒

我知道
是你让我的生命
从此不再单调
你就是惊叹号

你知道
是你让我又再次
听见自己心跳
幸福得快晕倒

我知道
是你让我的生命
从此不再单调
你就是惊叹号

haha how i wish i could be like this D:
change lyrics.
从前看见爱情我就想逃跑或许我不想再要尝分手的味道
现在看见爱情我就想逃跑或许我不想再要尝分手的味道
haha omg. ehh its a nice song! go listen! hmm..

2007-12-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

okay i shall update THIS blog. hmm.. still today nothing much ba.. went for training feeling very sad >< cos apparently i was disappointed in some stuff. haha, didnt think their lame jokes were funny at all, if they were even jokes ._. sigh.. haha i wrote my longest blog post yesterday omg frm 12 -3 am. first time i really wrote out everything on my mind o.0. hmm and i went to the lib today again, dam sian i was sort of stuck at some random maths question then went to eat dinner alone and came back home feeling weird cos all of a sudden i dont even know if im happy or sad or normal. some people will never understand cos they dont encounter this kind of setback. =(

i never stood a chance, but still, trying is better off than giving up :) jiayou you!

2007-12-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

hm.. the usual today. went to training and then had lunch and walked to comics connection to check up on Wii games. hm.. basically a bit no life la =( went home finished reading JASON X. i sort of like the series, as in im not happy abt the killings la.. ._. the nanotechnology incorporated into his body is like so cool and advanced. they say if he's hurt the nanotechnology or dubbed "nano ants" will instantly heal him and he wont even remember that his head got cut off. D: cuts are sutured even as they are occuring, fast worh. so dont think he can be killed. zz okay after i finished reading the book i turned on the com, and henceforth i entered the stoning stage. nothing to do on com really, forced myself to write the first paragraph of the commonwealth essay though. hmm..
eh the above para i wrote at 8 +. now is 11:55 lol! diao omg okay let me continue, cos i was watching videos of Super Mario on youtube =) haha nothing to continue also okay tmr is basically stoning day also.. siannn
and prig people i really dont know what to buy for you all cos im not that close to you all so you all can tell me what you all want =) eh a lot of 'you all' and sobs i want phone promotions cos i can change phones but no offers. =( okay its 12 am i can end liao then exactly at midnight yay

2007-12-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

ok i feel like playing super mario and i feel like taking ANY (really) piano grade, with the possible exception of 1 =). then i can assure myeslf that im not learning piano for some random reason D: okay so i have come to this grade 2 piece that i had dreaded to play since earlier this month. umm.. The Can-Can! =) okay it might sound easy to play and unfortunately im having problems playing the nicenice chords. omg.. zz and i dont even get this page how am i going to excel in music D: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chord_%28music%29 and the GENERAL EXERCISES are so freaking easy that im not even sure im doing grade 2 stuff. okay this is no time to be over-confident. haha cos there are ten million people out there whos got a grade 8or a diploma. D: jiayou weirong! in playing can can and in playing fur elise and in music and in the dreaded o levels. ciao! =D

2007-12-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

you know i think i should just drop to sec 1 squadleader. i dont know why but i just dont feel right. since the posts were out i sort of hated the council structure they came up with, what assess the people see how they fare then ask another three more people to go sec1, as in i didnt like this arrangement. i simply have no time to compete again for this post for another half a year theres alot of stuff coming up and im packed and busy. and having 4 people to one squad is more of a burden. i dont know how the sec1s think about me la, but i dont think its that positive D: as in they give that i dont feel like responding that kind of feeling whenever i talk to them. they dont seem to like talking to me and whenever they call sir i will ya and they just simply ignore and ask other squadleaders, how would i feel. if they dont like me then forget it. and im not going to get angry even though they rather have xy than me. cos i think i foresaw this quite long ago. hm.. i think im the sort who would rather make friends with people then to shout and all, still i wont blame them.. and they might think pumping little is nice, but it wont help in the long run. hope that whatever decision they make is what they really want.. okay i go practice piano le.. bye >.<

ps. if you all really think i act innocent and all then i think i'll be fuming. and 31st batch has got to be the most daring squad in a few years (why i say so is mostly because of msn). i think we sort of forgave and forgot, but its a fact that on msn they are a bit too erm.. i dont know the right word, or maybe its just we're not too strict enough

2007-12-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

went to lib frm 11-4 and tuition frm 7-9 and i had to go and paint the hse in between and tomorrow theres still training and after that i have to go national library D: omg i want one day= 48 hrs

2007-12-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

i agree with potato. how do you go into a jc when theres only like less than 200 spaces for people trying to get in through o levels? there are already people who are in IP whose friendster accounts and blogs have their direct admission via IP junior college plus years. like they havent even go in la.. the ministry of education really ruined the lives of those who want to work hard and get into good jcs. they give like 7/10 of spaces for IP. 2/10 for dsa. wth? then whats the bloody point of studying? if you dont have any special talents, you can be sure of NOT going in. some people just hardcore pia some yo yo or rubik's cube or some god forsaken music instrument then they see that guy as special and have talents. then they dont care studies and even before mid yr sec 4 they are already in. wheres the justice in that? does that mean that from the day you get your psle results your fate's already decided? 200 spaces imagine theres roughly dno how many schools in singapore divide by that number left how many spaces, dont think even got 20 per school. now jcs keep implementing IP when their objectives are totally crap. i dont even see the rationale. seriously speaking. theres like not enough jcs in singapore liao the ministry know not. then arent they forcing us to go to those relatively incompetent jcs? the ministry is getting more and more absurd. the whole foundation of democracy which singapore claims to be built upon is failing.

2007-12-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

okay hello.. today was quite a fruitful day, seeing that i miraculously completed the lengthy social studies SBQ. nearly two hrs of continuous writing at the library la... alone D: updated NYAA so thats that and i still have to go around to ask people for signatures and comments for the record book. today's gonna be a hectic day cos theres tuition, library session and maybe C.I.P there. going to make sure that C.I.P hits 200 hrs at least, and it can be presented in portfolio too. cip records =) okay since theres little space for o levels people we'll have to make do with dsa. and if i dont get in then to hell with studies, yup =)
ohya tomorrow going to see handphone too, zz. and i think im going to get a free Wii cos of the singnet plan.. omg la.. i dont want to play. sobs D: i want a grade 3 at least before june holidays cos i can put that in the aesthetics aspect.
btw we're writing a letter to the papers to comment on the quandary that IP has brought to us and to a lot of other people, to say out loud that its unfair, who wants to take part.

2007-11-30T00:48:00.000+08:00

hello.. so here i am blogging at 1:09am halfway through SPA homework

Homework left: English
Chinese
Social Studies

Things to do: Practice music ( must keep up wor )
NYAA
CIP HRS FOR NYAA
Study

yea thats about it.. since i see a random quiz i shall make do with it.

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH AN 'S' {sandy, sijia [omg foowie], sheena, shi ing haha}
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS {ehh.. i deleted them a while ago}
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY? {D:}
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? {i dont use straws.. okay i dont LIKE using straws}
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR? {uhhh...no duh}
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO? {hah.. dont know! haha go strings concert wor! or maybe jay chou}
Q: WHOSE THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE? {Super Mario}
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? {umm.. friend rice.. with horlicks LOL}
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT? {走开 to my brother}
Q: DO YOU WATCH TV? {erm once in a blue moon}
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO? {sure in my dreams}
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING? {yea.hunting season's around the corner anw}
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? {nice qns. depends, just go along ba}
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT? {few weeks ago?}
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW? {doing homework}
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? {NO and never will.}
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY { my brother p1}
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? {no, drugs are for losers}
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE? {yeah sure}
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD? {when i was playing tony hawks}
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE? {MRT train}
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD {no}
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS? {din see any.. ok fine transformers and the tom and jerry movie}
Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST? {myself}
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY? {no.. they have actually furnished me with things i can do while im bored}

2007-11-24T23:44:00.001+08:00

great, just great. down with high fever and flu, coincidence? i think not. i was doomed even before the Big Bang. there it is written, in the heavens, that i have to depart in a certain 2007 year. sobs bye world D:

2007-11-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

o.0 xbox 360 is with me! now just have to wait for someone to lend me halo 3 =) although im not really THAT into gaming. just cant miss that. haha! okay so i've been mapling and kameo-ing for two days straight. and i cant find 1984 and halo novels! need someone to accompany to borrow yea ^^ who want! >< -no response- D: ok nevermind.

Homework Left: English
Physics SPA 1 qn
Social Studies

yes no more le. then can go mug =) okay i shall read sec 4 textbooks first, although i havent buy yet. okay on to the 'topic of the week', da controversial psle top scorer issue. cool seh 294 pei4 fu2, wonder how compo and oral can minus less than 6 marks for two language subjects omg. singapore is overtaking alot of countries academically liao la. and to those p6 people whom i know, they scored quite well, around 260 avg. just want to say i feel happy for them, seeing that i didnt really put in that effort like 3 years ago. all go IP la, all no need take o levels la. more schools implementing IP la, like that singapore's education system is really going to kua3. if all IP might as well dont have major exams wth. of course, those get into ri hc those kind one, if sometime later have delusions of grandeur and think they are like superior to others, i wish they drop out of IP. these kind of people suck. cos there are more clever people out there than those who slack all day even though they're in IP. and its not fair again, work so hard chances of getting into good jcs are still pretty slim and the IP people can just go in without getting really fantastic results. no point. okay maybe im just complaning that im not in one, zz.
i dont know why i need someone from IP whos not hao lian and all to console me D: i've already got my life planned up to university, now i just have to keep to it, and that means scoring well.
i miss pri sch. everyone is like so dao now

ohya forgot to blog abt camcraft com trainings. zz i just wish people would stop acting as if they are dam pro and stuff. and stop all the bloody whose tent is better than whose. we're a team mother. compare here compare there competition also depend on each other right wtf. and im never going to eat with np people again cos they are so slow.

2007-11-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

okay i shall update yay. recently getting abit upset about my face again.. zz single jiu single lor. whats there to fuss about? sigh, sorry to all my friends cos they also cannot bear to see my face and then they still have to put up with it =( sobsobs

okay gongzhuxiaomei episode 8 le yes. then come back frm atc watch 8 9 and 10. whaaha. today was basically stoning, wanted to go lib do hw but then got the kit list thing then scared later cannot finish packing. come to think of it, i havent even started xD afternoon had "piano" and then played bookworm until like 7 lol. hmm i dno how to put up a screenshot but my word with most points up till now is HALO lol. 2k++ points only la. zz i dont want to go to ubin then stone there for 2 1/2 days. dont miss me. nobody will i guess..

ok homework-to-be-done list:

Phyiscs 2 papers (did 1)
Physics SPA Skill 3 Four Questions (havent do)
Social Studies some random essay (havent do)
E and A maths ws (finished except for like 2 or 3 dno how to do de)
English Compre (nope. just read through)
Eng Commonwealth Essay (thinking of what to write)
Chinese ws (did all the zong he only)
Chem ws ( erm. kinda stuck?)

after i come back i shall finish all these by november and dedicate my christmas to my studies
so its gonna be one hell of a month. thinking of everyday go lib those interested may contact me at 999 and leave your name IC and contact no so i can contact you.

back to bookworm, those interested in helping me get out of a very very very tight spot pls tell me then i can show you the screenshot then you can figure it out.. cos got the block "Qu" and i've got no vowels around.. zz and i just noticed the com was on the whole day and i havent listened to a single song yet.. omg.

ok this sucks but i shall go pack now.

2007-11-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

okay i think i've gotten over it. nvm lor, i wont care. why cant i find someone who really understands me wth. i think i've been too kind la, everytime let it pass. anything angry also throw it aside, then ppl think im too quiet wth. ppl forgive easily also pointed at, i think i will just be a bit colder tmr.

2007-11-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

好心没好报啦，hike like i never think of anything like that, kennenth also. still stay back till bloody 7+ to do the tasks and all that and type out the gameplay and walk like some dog to prepare the tasks and then we had to stone there and have that dumb profound sense of ennui. the digging you all come try la, hard like siao we like used 1 hr to bury 11 bottles la. zz, then nobody thank us. wth, not oic and aic no need care right. ok thanks you all taught me a 'valuable lesson'. nxt time i'll just stone around and dont you all say im slacking, since nobody appreciates us, or rather me anyway. wth la i feel like some dog being used and thrown away.
ok on a side note, happy birthday terence and sorry i cannot go to your chalet ytd, i will think of sth to get for you hm

2007-11-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

“我不配”真的让我想起了以往走过的路途，长度实在是无法仔仔细细地量出来的，再宽，再长的尺子也不管用。动听的旋律，再配搭上美丽，含有那么多情绪的歌词。如要自发内心唱出来，感情处理真的必须下点功夫。尤其是那些受过不少打击，经过不少狂风暴雨的人们。在爱情，友情中出现不少挫折的朋友，只想让你们知道，世上不只是你在孤军作战，可有许多人经历过相似的问题，比如说我咯！一时忽然想使用华语blog，是因为觉得华语比较能写出自己的感受，表达自己。

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

＃这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
　一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
　你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
　是我忽略　你不过要人陪

＊这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
　一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
　你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
　而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

在斑驳陆离的回忆里，看不到内藏我留给你的讯息。难道过去真的不能挽回了吗？那段时期，简直就像一场美梦。再多的妥协，你始终还是抓不着那在我内心深处徘徊，那么想宣告的秘密。看着你憔悴的模样，实在不忍心。你的美，我不配。
如果爱情有如童话故事般那该多好。。可一切都好虚假。。
沉浸在迷惘的世界中，真的不知如何是好，觉得好寂寞，好孤独哦。

虽然知道自己并不是那么的帅xD 但相信还有权力追求自己的梦想，那能弹钢琴，编自己的曲子的梦想。还有在情感方面能显出真正的我，请大家拭目以待 =/

2007-11-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

well.. it didnt come as a surprise anyway. im like in cat high then so far and so not close and everything dont expect anything =( it was a wrong decision frm the start.

2007-11-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

無雙
作詞：方文山　作曲：周杰倫

苔蘚綠了木屋　路深處　翠落的孟宗竹
亂石堆上有霧　這種隱居叫做江湖

箭矢漫天飛舞　竟然在城牆上遮蔽了日出　是誰　在哭

衝　你懂　你懂　你匆匆　有多少的蠻力　就拉多少的弓
聽我說武功　無法高過寺院的鐘　禪定的風　靜如水的松

＃我命格無雙　一統江山　狂勝之中　我卻黯然語帶悲傷
我一路安營紮下蓬　青銅刀鋒　不輕易用　蒼生為重

＊我命格無雙　一統江山　破城之後　我卻微笑絕不戀戰
我等待異族望天空　歃血為盟　我等效忠　浴火為龍

殘缺的老茶壺　幾里外　馬蹄上的塵土
升狼煙的城池　這種世道叫做亂世

那歷史已模糊　刀上的鏽卻出土的很清楚　是我　在哭

序　你去　你去　你繼續　我敲木魚　開始冥想　這場戰役
我攻城掠地　想冷血你需要勇氣　揮劍離去　我削鐵如泥

你去　你再去　你繼續不敵我致命的一擊　遠方的橫笛　吹奏你戰敗的消息
保持著殺氣　想贏的情緒　讓我君臨天下的駕馭

Repeat ＃,＊

命格無雙　一統江山　狂勝之中　我卻黯然語帶悲傷

Repeat ＊

甜甜的

作詞：方文山　作曲：周杰倫

我輕輕的嚐一口　妳說的愛我　還在回味妳給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嚐一口　這香濃的誘惑　我喜歡的樣子妳都有

妳愛過頭竟然答應我　要給我蜂蜜口味的生活
加一顆奶球我攪拌害羞　將甜度調高後再牽手
妳的愛太多想隨身帶走　想妳的時候就吃上一口
我溫熱著被呵護的感受　卻又擔心降溫了要求

※我嚐著妳話裡面的奶油溜啊溜　聽過的每句話都很可口呦啊呦
那些多餘的畫面全被跳過　妳的眼中只有我

＃我輕輕的嚐一口　妳說的愛我　還在回味妳給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嚐一口　這香濃的誘惑　我喜歡的樣子妳都有

＊我輕輕的嚐一口　妳說的愛我　捨不得吃會微笑的糖果
我輕輕的嚐一口　份量雖然不多　卻將妳的愛完全吸收

我微笑著讓香味停留　緣份走到這也賴著不走
像夾心餅乾中間有甜頭　繼續下去不需要理由

Repeat ※,＃,＊

我輕輕的嚐一口　妳說的愛我　還在回味妳給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嚐一口　味道香濃的說　我喜歡的樣子妳都有

Repeat ＊

2007-10-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

haiz. i wish myself good luck for tmr, wonder if anyone cares.

2007-10-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

like omg. felicia chin totally rocks xD and i cant believe i asked for a handshake! WAHH, but i never take photo~ hmm.. hehe. yay! nobody thought i would be so daring right! =/ no pics but other people got alot worh. go get frm them then post! wahahha, i havent wash my right hand since.

2007-10-24T22:03:00.001+08:00

starting was like... not more than 5 people or so want to go to hc. then suddenly got like dno how many wth? are they just jumping on the bandwagon or what.. omg zz, dam scared no place, everyone suddenly want to go. wahh the stress.
why iszit on msn people always say talk to you tmr, talk to you later and then make me stone there when you all online and wishing that i dont have to initiate a convo for once. nobody talks.

2007-10-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Guardian angel

是否记得初次相遇的情景
从气球纷飞的那刻起
我的爱意写满你的名
是否记得守护天使的游戏
从我抽到你的卡片起
不再是一个人的回忆
或许未来有快乐也有艰辛
我会把你紧抱在怀里
永远不让你为爱哭泣

如果天空只剩最后
一颗闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引~

总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
爱是我们唯一的约定

总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够~感应~

nice song =D

2007-10-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

hehe... okay ignore that last post, momentary de ok. =\ im feeling much better already, although i do wish someone will like talk to me on msn, cos nobody talks. anyone okay? zz always (almost i start convo then everyone stones, i might as well appear offline =D. come to think of it, i appear offline most of the time =P

2007-10-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

ok maybe this isnt really a good time to get over-emotional over such a trivial thing..those who want to read on continue bah, cos i think many of you will think that this is a dumb thing to be worried for. yah, so maybe tomorrow im going to lavender to process the dumb IC. then the picture i take arh, wah i dont like D: okay i think im not photogenic AT ALL. why do others look so good in pics and im like down there envying. okay i know i sound dumb but this is what i felt when i saw the pic, i've not felt like this for close to a year and now it comes back.maybe this is what they call the typical 'emo', haiz. but i dno la, im just writing my feelings out =/ ok so there isnt really a single soul in which i feel safe to confide everything in. is this what they call despo? i dont feel loved at all ):

2007-10-21T14:46:00.000+08:00

晴天娃娃

【不能說的秘密】電影插曲

主唱：江語晨
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：周杰倫
編曲：林邁可
監製：

歌詞

門外的桂花香　飄進我的書桌前
我知道該起床　媽再給我兩分鐘
拉開了窗簾　怎麼是下雨天
把吐司咬碎碎　喂我的狗叫MIKAI
哥哥說你猜猜　今天為什麼下雨
原來MIKAI把晴天娃娃吃了
我討厭下雨天　親愛的你快出現
不然我　就告訴媽咪你偷牽我的手
我喜歡夏天　你穿背心的感覺
每天　都想黏　都很甜
我討厭下雨天　親愛的你快出現
不然我　就告訴媽咪你偷牽我的手
我喜歡夏天　你穿背心的感覺
每天　都想黏　都很甜

歌手：黑涩会美眉专辑：甜心轰炸机

"晴天娃娃"
打印预览我的天空静静的在下雨
我最爱的你去哪里
我望着窗外的滴流是个雨季
不让你带走好天气
我要美丽的爱情挂在屋檐等放晴
我要停止在偏离不在让谁触动我的心
快乐那么不容易我要丢掉陈旧的日记
今天要新的定义我看到晴天娃娃的表情
我的爱有了新剧情

我的世界悄悄的在放晴
慢打开窗户透透气
我忘了经过多少冬季
你已经离开我的心
我要美丽的爱情挂在屋檐等放晴
我要停止在偏离不在让谁触动我的心
快乐那么不容易我要丢掉陈旧的日记
今天要新的定义我看到晴天娃娃的表情
我的爱有了新剧情
阳光会绽放为爱相信的雨滴
心情的陶美会因为我拥有回忆
我要美丽的爱情挂在屋檐等放晴
我要停止在偏离不在让谁触动我的心
快乐那么不容易我要丢掉陈旧的日记
今天要新的定义我看到晴天娃娃的表情
我的爱有了新剧情

我的爱挂上了好心情

wah.. i realise all songs with the title 晴天娃娃 all very nice, esp first one! =D life rocks.

11 days to chi o levels

2007-10-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

hmm... today arh. wah dont say liao la,a waste of time in a nutshell.zz, and i need to study maths and chinese. IC the photo havent pai1 yet.. then hair havent cut. wah.. alot of things need to do lor.. haha yay downloaded secret OST + niu zai hen mang MV into mp4! =D this song also quite nice la =)
rahh i go bathe le byebye =/

1983 路过五指山
环绕了一圈一圈
那一片一片沉浸的森林绿地
我们穿过延着淡海等待潮汐
直到终究会有一天
女神为了爱情回到我身边
1993 回到五指山
变成了废墟一片
农夫在抽着烟
记忆中的梦没实现
沙漠的一边冷冷的一片
我不忍心回到了从前
可惜分手那天留下的不是眷恋
我知道这个世界被沦落的时候
等了那么多长时间
找不到一丁点的尽头
想不起的回忆里能留下多少美丽
默默的等待猜想一千多年的思绪
我的思念又一点点的出现
那一片片一片的森林绿地
默默中过在大海边缘等待潮汐
心中的你变成自己
不能呼吸改变了的奇迹
墨石的土一直在哭
不想突出深埋了的觉悟
古藏的书谁在诉苦不要记录
遗留了的幸福寻找付出不在领悟
这次会输添满了的尘土

故事里面说你要离开我
记着那烛火照着心诉说
沙漠中尘土找不到付出
被遗弃的心没理由在哭
伤心的泥土添满了深谷
等他老去后谁知道退出
等他老去后谁知道退出
心中的你变成自己
不能呼吸改变了的奇迹
墨石的土一直在哭
不想突出深埋了的觉悟
古藏的书谁在诉苦不要记录
遗留了的幸福
寻找付出不在领悟
这次会输添满了的尘土

hmm lyrics bit wrong. its always like this for new songs. xP

2007-10-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

boo. ok its been almost a week.. bleah, so much for blogging on my birthday. hmm ok it was fun. =\

eoy results are out~ =x

English~C5 56
<-- like lol. my argumentative just passed, so much for using vocab. even childish narrative stories with totally no vocab at all get higher. wtf.

Chinese~A2 70
<-- ah well, at least got a distinction. the stupid oral and listening pull me down. i dno how to talk under pressure de. zzz, now im scared that i screwed up o level oral.

Chemistry~B3 68
<-- again. why cant my chem just get A2 for once. i cant seem to figure out the prob yet..

Physics~A1 77
<-- ok. one A1 i could have topped this too okay wth. last qn refractive index i go find critical angle.wtf. then got two more mistakes see le is like f. 40kW i go put 30kW copy wrong. altogether 4 marks leh wlao! others dont say le la.

Geography~B4 64
<-- cool right. top class for geog now become like that. nevermind i shall not go into further details

Combined Humanities~A2 73
<-- i officially declare that i dont like history. waste of time to know abt stuff that happened in the past. and they keep saying must look ahead.

Mathematics~A1 91
<-- further elaboration can be ignored. nothing to say. two A1 o.o

so avg is 71.sth thats an A2. L1R5 is THIRTEEN wtf. MSG i think 2.57 or sth.
Conclusion: heck care eoys. at least i tried, now shall work for prelims and 31st, hope everyone slack. and can they like retain more people. better kill them off now.

ok today.. basically bit sian. yup.. not happy for quite alot of subjects. after school wanted to go to popular to search for assessment books, then all the books at j8 and np look very noob. zz and they werent many of those, all revision guides.
+ i want to complain to some body (<-- seperated okay) i dno, is there one about human rights or sth. wth.. i shall start with LTA la. today happy resolved to work harder and mug then want to go home. go mrt station thirsty then drink plain water, yeah three of us. then some mrt security guy come over say cannot drink then take our bus pass or whatever you call that. then i ask plain water also cannot meh. then he say what "we dont define water" wth? the sign there say no drinking also never say drink what, plus the water thing also not coloured. so many loopholes, he tell us cannot drink plain water. what if we die, or sth like that. LTA dno how to set rules one, or maybe is that guy extra. f la.. he want debate iszit. i think i will win la. alot of people will agree with plain water and plus the loopholes and everything he sure lose. complain school then complain la, i complain to ministry la. but i doubt they'll help a random kid. so, singaporean adults like to pick on students. take bus also drink like ten million times also nothing happen, zz.
im not very sanguine about my future and it looks bleak and dismal i dont think i can get into hc.. sorry everyone. but i guess you all dont care anyway D:
plus my sunburnt skin seriously boosted my self-confidence yeah. note the sarcasm.
on a side note, some people at school stop acting at all, go around hao lian marks. ok i admit it im infuriated by this. bye =\

you. i think i need your care and concern now. At least you make me feel better, even though i know 我是配不上你的,and maybe you look down on me too. pls dont, cos everything will collapse if you did

2007-10-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Mok! -at least i think its his birthday.. =x

hmm okay.. basically theres nothing really today.. intensive chi remedial and then our two slacking periods. Asked about composition but apparently the teacher doesnt know.. im like so anxious to know my argumentative essay marks can! haha..
okay im going to keep this short cos i want to post this by 0000hrs,which is like less than a minute away. =x anyway im sure theres loads to blog about tomorrow! i hope.

2007-10-12T00:03:00.001+08:00

haha.. change blogskin might as well blog abit ba! hmm...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEILONG!!
uh ya... haha although i dont think can give you any present.. sorry! =x

ok... i think im very tired and i want to sleep. scripts also next week then check. i wonder what marking days are for ):
its always the same every year.. i dont have that special kind of mood. maybe you can make a difference so large that i can finally experience that.. [no not adrenaline rush, NOT hyperarousal] hmm.. maybe its a one-of-a-kind thing, of which i seem to be unable to find suitable words to "type" out expressively. D:

2007-10-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

yay!just seeing that made me happy! omg.

2007-10-03T18:33:00.001+08:00

i vow to be a mugger

2007-09-30T15:05:00.000+08:00

2007-09-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

ew. never go online a while than got so much stuff to do.. wah sian la. i spend more time in the library and at sch than at home la. i also want mugging day. than can mug like shit.. zzz like sunday what. wake up mug, go tuition, rush back home mug, go tuition again, evening rush to library, then go back home at 11 to mug again. im dead tired.. sure no mood one what! sian la. i also want exemption i also want what homelearning day. at the least la.. then dont have anything. what is this? f la. the more i harp on it the more i feel effed up. ya la. i psle 248 NIA. then everybody what 260. then i need to go through all this shit. wtf. i dont want to say le. i cant continue typing this.. later i get emo complaints again. mother. my goal now is to prove all those supposedly more zai people wrong and own them. i admit i lost sight of my goal le i just want to mug like some retard and secure my place in the world out there. ip ppl you all wait. those who slack i make sure you suffer.

2007-09-22T23:10:00.001+08:00

no time liao. frm now still next yr october.

10/07 - EOYS + CHINESE
11/07 CCA MUG FOR PRELIMS
12/07 CCA MUG FOR PRELIMS

2008- 3 prelims of no particular use and o levels where all the hard work wont pay off, and those mugging frm this year term 3 onwards all will not get 6A1s. and all the slackers get inside all the jcs. thats what life is about, unfair-ness. i dont even think that we can even slack now until we die. o levels, A levels ( IF ) , ns, work wth? at least another 15 years of mugging spree.

i dont want to get married and i want to 拆散 every couple cos im a selfish person and i dont care what other people think

2007-09-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

today mugging day wor. everyday mug until midnight.

2007-09-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

yeah sure.. a grade 8 practical in music can get you into a jc no kicks. grade 0 get 2 pts also hard, so without talent, u're nothing. so if u're born normal you are going to get rejected. so its normal now to include a certain skill in your testimonial or else you arent going anywhere. yea, sure. and im grade 0 cool. i see people play music i feel dam jealous. i should have been devoted to that stupid piano 15 yrs ago.

wow, today is zhong qiu jie celebrations WORH. and i brought my physics and chinese into the hall to study, although never study alot cos got song to listen. zzz.. now morning assembly is a waste of time, bring everything to do there, wed assembly also lor. all bring stuff down dont care, teachers kp just say we're mugging cos we're concerned about our results. and sure, people are lighting lanterns in some mid-autumn festival and walking around with light sticks. i rmb clearly i was mugging like some dog at lib or at home i forgot. this is a crap programme. so what if no o levels. im determined to own everyone in jc, i dont care, even i kena spam no lifer, im going to prove to those slackers who slack for four years also use ip go inside jc then im going to own them until they cry and im going to be a soloist and not make any frens and ostracize myself cos im angry at what they did for the past four years and what they have done to me. all know each other cos dam close ma. everyday after sch oh yay! lets go over! woots~. so fun! ~.~ mug to survive.

Countdown to o level chinese: dno how many days 1 month bah
( wow i got o levels )

2007-09-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

ok sorry for that last post but im LIKE SO 1000K% SCARED OF O LEVEL CHINESE IF I NEVER GET THAT TWO POINTS I ASSURE YOU I WILL CRY LIKE SOME GIRL [say all you want cos i dont care]. zz, and why are there so many people grade 8 people out there. i feel inferiorly inferior. and guess what somehow cca had somehow creeped in in OCTOBER wth?! my birthday somemore. cannot celebrate already very GOOD le still want me to go out to sea. what is this. and dont try to irritate me in october cos i'll shout.

Countdown to fork in our path: ONE AND A HALF MONTHS

o.o i was somehow tagged to do this umm.. nice quizzie thing =x.

List out your Top 5 Birthday Presents Which You Wish For:
1. CHINESE O LEVEL A1
2. CHINESE O LEVEL A1
3. FYE 5 A1s
4. FYE 5 A1s
5. CHINESE O LEVEL AND FYE 5 A1s

Answer the following questions:

since i was tagged by two people.. 0.o

1. The person who tagged you was? eening

2. Your relationship with him/her is? umm.. meimei x)

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?

1) um.. 'anything related to jap' fanatic?
2) cool surname OI!... 0.o lol
3) nicenice and clever clever =\
4) inhumane LOL. no la... hmm.. innocuous? oops. =x
5) uhh.. very nice lo!

4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you? i seriously dont know.. hm.. recently helping me in CHEMMIE.

5. Most memorable words he/she has said to you? yoyo? LOL >.<

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? think that something is wrong somewhere..

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? huh.. no need la 0.o

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? go fight her lor.. cos enemies mah so must fight.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? my book

10. The thing you desire to do most for him/her would be? -pokes- guess.

11. Overall impression of him/her? uh. great mei! :3

1. The person who tagged you was? weiqi

2. Your relationship with him/her is? umm... di also?! :3

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?

1) zai
2) clever =x
3) music better than me
4) uhh nice nice too!
5) knows eveything related to jap too.. =D

4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you?hm.. give me notes? buy me a winnie the pooh frm japan? =x

5. Most memorable words he/she has said to you? IP sucks

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? next.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? er.. next?

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? wont one la hor!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? no reason, cos it wont happen

10. The thing you desire to do most for him/her would be? buy him a piano.

11. Overall impression of him/her? nice friend too! but he more zai, and i feel inferior

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you? mugger, no life but i dont care

13. A character trait you love about yourself? mugging spirit, easily motivated

14. A character trait you hate about yourself? too much a perfectionist and so on, i cant stand people getting grade 8.

15. Person you want to be? A Nobody {kh}

16. Say something to the people who care for you! hmm.. xie xie wor. i dont see alot though.

this quiz is long, i still got hw to do.
maths, geog, english,

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people to know what they feel about you.

* can tag back right?

1 xinghe
2 FOOWIE
3 leonard
4 xingyu
5 bryan
6 zijin
7 eening
8 weiqi
9 ms hui
10. me. nothing to put mah

[ i randomly insert in de dont ask me]

Who is #6 having a relationship with? depends on what kind of relationship mah.

Is #9 a male or female? female? o.o

If #7 and #10 are together, will it be a good thing? no it will not.

How about #8 and #5? it will be a very bad thing.

What is #2 studying about? i really dno, she not online le~

When was the last you talked to #3? today at sch

What kind of music does #8 like? everything? i really dno if got specific language de not lol.

Does #1 have any siblings? no, and hes proud of it.

Will you woo #3? no.

Is #4 single? i dont know..

Whats #5 surname? tan?

How about #10? lee! yay! just like all the pm(s)

#4's hobby? singing? kbox

Do #5 and #9 get along? uh. they are complete strangers

Where does #2 study at? homie

Say something casual about #1? likes to be cold.

Have you tried developing feelings about #8? yea sure. all the time LOL.

Where does #9 live? i dno, pretty soon its gna be a private apartment le. hor?

Are #5 and 1# best friends? uh no.

Does #7 like #2? uh. hmm..

How did you get to know #2? haha, classmate frm p3 i guess?

Does #1 have any pets? no, he keeps himself

Is #7 the sexiest person in the world? -blank-

so thats all for the quizzie. SO LONG CAN. ok so good luck for my chinese, if i never get the points what you all say wont help de. then you all can dont treat me as a fren liao cos i'll be freaking emo. ciao!

P.S Life __________

1) rocks 2) sucks 3) owns 4) is crap

2007-09-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

what the fuck. i damn noob. i never even go for any major maths or sci competition in my whole fucking life cos nobody chose me to go and there isnt any in our school anyway. plus the opportunities are also given to those triple PR(S) tmd. ask them go back their own country get cert or what la. come here steal everyone's place in society then get degree le then what go back stone. to hell with foreign talent policy la. gl. next time i apply for work nobody want me le la. i like so noob can, nothing to write AT ALL. then all those slack people do nothing get all the good grades fair not!?? plus everyone girlfriend here boyfriend there.. bgr NIA. fuck la. like now get into relationship got any fucking use like that, later go out be road sweeper earn like $1 a month. kns.like i even care about having a fucking gf.. go die la. i rather not have any gf if i can accomplish great things in life. okay i know i sound stupid but thats what im feeling now. i hope those bloody fucking flirts and those got stead one all fail and retain. fuck all of you. people dont have o levels i in no position to say, want do what then do what lor, cos no 'major' exam until A levels mah. and i can see that there alot of proud and insensitive people and people who only see things from their own damn POV. like today, the promotion results come out, everyone behaving like kids. cheer here cheer there can just listen not, sir also say like this waste time. also not like this term A1 all, whats the fucking use if you score like some shit in your sch results. and i dont see why the teachers still cannot see who wants to retain and who wants to study. fuck chi i never get A1 i dno what to do le. lets observe. see who cry when they retain then they will know. say i everyday mug. wth i spend like 1.5 hrs everyday surfing the net aimlessly la. blog what wikipedia check movie plot summore. i also got slack. wtf. i only want to do well then i see all these crap, all these kinds of bloody fuck attitude. ip go die cos everyone's having bgr with the opposite gender sch they are initiating the programme with and allare SLACKING. i bet i beat at least 15% of sec 3s in IP schs this term. see this kind of attitude flares me up. i dno le la. then tmr the hsk IM LIKE SUPPOSED TO GO COS LIKE GOT INTERNATIONAL CERT AND I AHVE TO GO FOR WHAT CCA?! which one more impt u tell me. an exam that the whole fucking earth is taking or some cca event. pls lo. set your priorities right. RIGHTT >_> everyone's life is so screwed. and theres nt even one soul that knows how i feel.

2007-09-13T22:10:00.001+08:00

ok quite a while never blog le.. anyway this isnt gna be very long anyway cos theres still tons of work left to do.. ehh the quizzie thing i find some time then do can? :3 heh sorry lor... zzz i want to go for that hsk thing! zzz then need go do service day.. but seriously international exam, theoretically, should be of more importance than a small "outing" right? bleah. so much for setting your priorities right when you cant even choose. sobs.. i want my cert! ask ms wong le if nxt year june haven send back (assuming i can get the cert) then she will write in testimonial.. at least it'll look better. okok. i need to go bathe =x

SOME OF THE WORK THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE:
=memorise chem de everything i dno how.
=do ALL the physics papers
=history essays?! x(
=chinese exercises. omg.

above is what i plan for today la.. so i dont think i will sleep le..
ah ok le! ^^

2007-09-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

see la. everytime also like that. everyday deny then hai bu shi zhe yang. wth. i feel like spamming the keyboard and see what comes out. wtf.

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2007-09-06T21:14:00.001+08:00

im into secret again :D but i haven watch the movie.. lag can.
today was omg.. i finally have time to do my homework again! =D

2007-09-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

omg i could have done so much today. sheesh.. tomorrow also. wahhh.. and i haven finish my homework ):

2007-09-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

ok, so to cover up that abysmal post (yes i know why not delete it?) that day which was totally written in subconscious-ness and with great conscientiousness. yes that line practically sums up everything, frm a lone point of view. i took 2 hrs to come up with it.. but nevermind.. shall talk about random 'things'. i had a balanced dream today in the morning at around 7am! yay. so cool luh. balanced meaning that it was good...and bad. yup. the good part was really good, and like all good dreams, they were like so momentary and rendered people thirsting for more,so and thats what we do isnt it, force ourselves back into that world of our own. funny, i never dreamt of clocks, this i conclude that a dream is a dimensional tear in this world in which we unknowingly enter upon uh... sleeping? and time does not play a part in that system.okay enough.. so i woke up at 7am, and went back to sleep again, to continue my sweet dream =D cool huh! haha yeah we would always wake up at that particular instant when we dont want it to stop eh. and how i wish it was real >< haha but who could have foresaw that i entered a whole new nightmare?!! lol, i was in this horror carnival with kenneth tan and he succeeded in persuading me to go on that eerie ride. so i did, i must right?! i dont have control, cos im sleeping. -.- then when we got on the tram or cart or whatever, he suddenly gave me that horror movie laughter and pushed me away into the bunch of toys and dolls that were like all looking at me. then he took off. and all the bunnies carrying carrots started towards me. sobs.. then i ran, i dno what happened. there were alot of other monsters, to grotesque to narrate. sobs.. anyway i finally reached the DOOR TO THE LIGHT. out of the world of darkness eh? kh ._. then guess what. i saw mickey mouse holding the Road To Dawn keyblade and i woke up ._. and i went to school. afternoon was basically slacking and playing, cos i nobody to study with plus nobody wants to go out with me lol! okay i wun sound so..
lets find our modus vivendi shall we. then everyone can be happy. gogo!

2007-09-03T00:37:00.000+08:00

i feel like shouting at every nanyang girl till they all cry.